Being on the staircase

Life is going great now a days. Which other job pays you about 800 bucks a day for sitting at home doing nothing?? That is happening right now with a whole lot of TCS trainees. Training at TCS has officially finished. Its officially called ILP or Initial Learning Program by tcs. Now after we reported at tcs office, the RMG or the resource managment guys there who are supposed to put us into projects, quite in a jolly mood told us "guys, we dont have any projects for you, but you have to report here everyday" and do what?? Dont ask that question.

You are supposed to report to the staircase everyday and idle about until 4. However the testing RMG man (truly godsend) went one further. He told that there was no need to report to the staircase but be at home comfortably, just be within the reach of your cell phone wherever you are. Being in that great testing stream, I too got to sit it out at home taking my cell along with me literally everywhere. I watched like about 7 films in two days and "Mystic River" really stands out. If you havent watched it yet, its a good one to spend your time on.

On other news, I have finally quit smoking. It happened last weekend. I was being totally fucked up in the mind with the booze of the weekend and the packet of miles that got consumed somewhere between saturday and sunday. One of best friends, Rijin, was over here for the weekend and it was totally out of control in the weeked. Two full bottles of vodka on the saturday night got all of us really going. I have never been that out of control on booze. To say the least, if someone asked me for the Google password I would have gladly given it to them that day.

Well, after all the hangover on sunday night things started to clear up and yeah that slogan came into my mind, "Think Simple, Think Clear". That ended the cigaratte craving. I have vowed to not touch that thing again. This time I think maybe its final, but what the heck you never really know!

Have I told you that I took a swing at pot over the last month. The first time was at the office and it was pretty wild but it was nothing compared to the second time in my room and that one was totally weird. The problem was I smoked a whole joint to myself and things got pretty out of control after that. I had smoked it on top of the water tank. If I has stayed there for another 2 minutes I would have slept there until the next day morning. The mind started rolling around and it was and unending rolling. Reality really gets fucked in there. I am still not sure whether I am living in the dream or the reality. You lose control of your conscious totally. Well that episode did put an end to my adventures in that side unless I get someone else to try it along with. It is really frightening stuff to say the least.

It is the third day today sitting it out at home and I am starting to experiment with CakePHP today. I don't really know whether i will go on with that but its nice to try. Augustin, my idiotic roommate, is going home back to Kerala for the weekend. I dont really know why i said that but he is fuzzing around here asking all sorts of stupid questions. That guy has some really serious problems coming up in his life.

Going back to that booze party day, I started msging like hell about gmj once i got high. I dont know where this is going but she is one of the reasons I am still having my sanity. On occassions its really hard to say which one is reality and which is not. So happy to be still here, I may be back soon. later