Innocent Rambling again!

i am back after sometime to blogger and I see that it hasn't changed much since the time i started using it. However, they have a login box in the front page itself. The old blogger where you had to click a link and then go to another login page was really annoying.

Well, what made me come back for another post?? Some booze and some restlessness. Life in chennai is coming very monotonous. Did you hear that I am working with mainframes now?? JCLs, rexx and abends have become the new common usages. Abend 3303 is a database busy abend, just down and up your DB and the job will run fine. Don't worry, this post is not going to boggle your mind with that cr*p.

This one is about weekends. I got the idea of posting this on the cab back home from office (it's free of charge!). The guy next to me was trying to make some conversation with the pretty girl  in saree sitting next to him. And it was a Friday! what else to ask other than, "hey, what are your plans for the weekend?". I get a load of these questions now every Friday. I mean, what am i doing for weekends. Just the usual booze and lazing around. Back in college, nobody used to mind about it being a monday or a friday. All of a sudden, people expect  you to say something cool you are going to do for the weekend.

What weekends?? Its just two days to do your chores which you have been putting off for the last two weeks and would probably put off again if you can. I mean that shirt could use another two weeks in the office before it goes into the laundry right?? As its the case, we got drunk this saturday and started conversing about anything and everything. And the topic of lies, obligations and life comes to my mind. The lies i have been living through nags at my consciousness every now and then. The lies i have told about what i am are really annoying. These MNCs and the boring 9 to 5 jobs are stupid dude!, except for the salary you get every end of the month!

Well back about being at the weekends! Weekends have become the all important part of life in Office. The fact that you have got nothing to do for weekends is so out of fashion. Come on! What is so bad about not going out for another useless stroll in the city and the stupid malls.

Its her birthday this 21st. Lots of memories come flooding back. Do you know what really missing someone or something means? Its that, every irrelevant thing brings back those memories and you think about how better off you were then. You think of the better things and the better life. The obligatory struggle that you live now is so much torture. Like the slow but sure advance of death in your life.

On the technical side, I have some  projects that are coming up. I dont know why but i think a lot now-a-days. Thinking too much can make you go crazy, they have told me, really?? Back in those days, you didn't have to care about how other people would react to your off hand remarks, Its so damn irritating and the fact that i have become a non stop smoker doesn't really help. Ok, to my recent projects, some stupid java work i did at my office have got them to appreciate me. It feels good though, being appreciated and valued once in a while.

However, i dont think i have a future in any of these things. I am just biding my time doing some coding until my big thing comes up.
And i miss cynthia and gmj, the two little better things of my life. I wish i have another chance at them. Oh! those good times of no worries and so much happiness. The past looks so rosy and the future so bleak. Mainly money worries though. I wish i had enough just to pay off my debts. Debts to bankers and debts to friends and debts to strangers. All are debts and all are same.

That was nice chatting with you riddle, see ya!!!